Pickled Beets: Archive

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Last night was the weirdest night of my entire life. That seems like it must have been a pretty extreme night. I kind of knew the whole Jason thing was going to happen because I knew that he liked you since the first time you talked about the way he acted around you. I called it but you didn’t believe me. I guess I was right to have all the initiative to not like him. I am really glad...

Feb 20th

Pickled Beets

Always tempted to see what goes on in your mind every day. But I don’t give in. Because I know how I’ll feel. I’ll feel either flattered by you thinking about me or I’ll most likely be disappointed. There’s nothing more disappointing than reading about someone who you thought was your true love loving you too and then rambling on about moving on. I mean, what’s the game here? There must be one...

Feb 17th

I close both locks below the window I close both...

Feb 16th

I still went on your page

After I told myself not to. It is like an addiction. I hate it, but I somehow deep down inside of me still am driven to check it every waking second I have. I made some mistakes. With you. With how I handled situations. With closing you out when you wanted me to care for you. With embellishing you with things when you only wanted me. I smoked that one night when I found out you had been talking to...

Feb 13th

I know you wont read any of this.

It’s okay. I don’t mind and realize that you cannot get anywhere if you just continue to beat yourself up looking at stuff I post when you do not have to. I do not want that for you. I still go on your tumblr even though I am not supposed to and it just makes me miss you and hurt with/for/because of you and everything you are. It is hard for me when I want to be there with you and I...

Feb 12th

Miss Traczyk,

I do want you. I want everything to do with you. I dont know how you could feel like I don’t miss you. I listened to music for the first time since we broke up. I couldn’t handle it. I haven’t even been able to turn on the radio and chime in. Music brings all these emotions to the top. I am just fine on my steroids handling everything perfectly thanks for caring and giving me...

Feb 11th

needing Verb: Require (something) because it is...

Feb 9th

I understand

You do what you have to do. I do not want to hold you back from bettering yourself. And I apologize if I have done so with my posts. I just know that I always want to be a part of your life in some way. And I know that your memories will never leave me. If you don’t/can’t look at my tumblr anymore that is fine. I only post on it for you because I made it for you. I don’t even...

Feb 7th

Thank You

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. I will be just fine. Like you says I always am. That I am bulletproof. I leave in a few minutes. Thank you for all of this. It was so warming and true. I truly know and believe that if you could be there for me you would and I...

Feb 6th

I am glad that

You had/are having a good day today. And I am glad that you are becoming more involved in your religion because I know you wanted that. It makes me happy. Thanks for thinking of me and giving me credit of helping you in your mind. Wishful thoughts my way will always be appreciated. My day was mediocre at best. I woke up and talked to my pen pal which was a great time. It is always fun talking to...

Feb 6th

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I do value what you have to say

I am on your Tumblr every day: I know that Ben ran away again. I know if I am a runner that I should do toe raises. I know you have had stressful days. I know you have annoying neighbors. I know you had a bad test score. I know you miss me. I know you aren’t feeling good about yourself currently. I know burning everything I ever gave to you crosses your mind. I know that kitties are...

Feb 3rd

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It’s funny that you mention it, because...

Feb 1st

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Sara.

I really REALLY miss you too. And I wonder every day if you’re thinking about me as much as I’m thinking about you. But I know you’re probably not. You’ve moved on. I guess I have to too. Suffering in Biblical terms. 2 Peter 3:19- “The lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient towards you, not wishing that any should perish,...

Jan 30th

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#Vent

I’m sorry that I walked away. I don’t know what sparked it. The light bickering. The emotional you which was understandable. The mindset that was taking over. The effort. The guilt in taking you away from your religion. The steroids I was on that cluttered my mind like a rainy day. Or was is some volatile concoction of everything just slowly burning me away. It might have been the...

Jan 29th

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As I sit at home, alone, I reflect on...

Jan 1st

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This is a really cute song that makes me think of...

Dec 22nd

As I clear the spiderwebs from my tumblr and...

Dec 13th

I love feeling home, whole, young, fun, free,...

Dec 3rd

You make me want to listen to Oldies. I...

Dec 1st

I would do ANYTHING to get to Santa Catalina,...

Nov 29th

I had such an incredible time today Sara. I love...

Nov 25th

I know that times get rough, I know that life...

Nov 23rd

Even if it was not physical, I could still feel...

Nov 18th

I meant to post this song last night but I fell...

Nov 17th

When

You listen to your girlfriends playlist for the first time in a few weeks and you realize: It has completely transformed. Her playlist sounds like pickling beets. Every song is about you. You feel every emotion in every single line in every single song. You fall more in love with her(SOMEHOW!!!!!). Oh girlfriend I love you too.

Nov 16th

That just might be just what I need (to get me...

Nov 15th

I’ll always keep you warm in the cold. ...

Nov 14th

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When you love someone so much it hurts. I miss...

Nov 13th

Going the Distance <3 I’m always here...

Nov 11th

You(in song) = Sara = <3 You’re just too...

Nov 10th

I could have sworn I posted this last night. But...

Nov 9th

This song does not begin to express even 1% of...

Nov 6th

I really like the lyrics to this song. I was...

Nov 5th

That was Beautiful. We picked this song tonight....

Nov 4th

You were right about this song :) We should...

Nov 3rd

This song. Was meant for us. We were meant for...

Nov 2nd

I can’t get my feet up off the edge I kind...

Nov 1st

Hold it, I’m about to drop off Let me tell...

Oct 31st

Beating Hearts Baby(Baby is this love for real)...

Oct 30th

I believe in nothing Not the end and not the start...

Oct 29th

When You Want To

Post cute things to your girlfriend, but you can’t. When you have tried to on all of your friends computers and none of them work for some reason. When you have tried so hard and its bothering you. When it is making you sad that the one thing you said would always be there for her to turn to is dormant and inactive. When there are so many things you feel and want to say that the songs...

Oct 21st

It’s the way that you blush when...

Oct 13th

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Hello there the angel from my nightmare The shadow...

Oct 12th

Kiss me out of the bearded barley Nightly, beside...

Oct 11th

We’ll do it all Everything On our own We don’t...

Oct 10th

I wanna sink to the bottom with you I wanna sink...

Oct 9th

If I had a gun, I’d shoot a hole into the...

Oct 8th

When you were here before Couldn’t look you...

Oct 7th

“There’s always that one memorable kiss that...

Oct 5th

Don’t believe all those lies Darlin’,...

Oct 4th